I came home early from a party today
For the first time in forever
Because I felt so alone there
Because I couldn’t find my way through the crowd
And find you
And catch up on how you have been for the past hour
And talk shit about
Who you have met
How they are boring
Or cringey
Or both
And how no one can have the same conversations that we do
But tonight I made my way around the crowd
I met a couple of people wearing disposable hats
Had a few conversations over bottom-shelf vodka and coke
And I wanted to find you again
To talk about the thing we usually do at these events
But you weren’t there
Because you didn’t come with me
Because we haven’t spoken since last September
shades of gwei 