new year

It’s 2:39 AM in San Francisco on New Year’s Day
And I am left stranded in the Marina
Because it is late
And there are not any Ubers left willing to pick me up
Even though I’ve been waiting for so long
So I had to control myself this evening
By drinking well within my limits
Taking a quarter instead of a half
And biking myself home
The responsible side of myself showing
To people I have never met before
Who I will never see again
Knowing this side of me not authentic to myself

Damn
I just met you this evening at this party
You introduced yourself with such a smile
And gave me a hug without knowing me
It was when you brought in something to share
And our hands touched when you handed it to me
I liked you so much in a way I shouldn’t
I hope you remember me the next day
When the alcohol and high has worn off
And all that’s left is just faint recollections of the other night
Parts that I cannot remember clearly
When we exchanged a few sentences
And I thought we could’ve been close
If there was a way we could meet again