energy

I feel like all friendships, and relationships, can be boiled down into potential and kinetic energy. There is a set of unique attributes between two people, or a group, and the course of the friendship is more-or-less mapped out in the beginning. The strength of the friendship is dependent on the uniqueness of the traits. But once energy is spent, it cannot be restored to a previous state. There is little use trying to recover things to the “way things were.” There is a natural course in which friendships run, moving towards heat death.

It is for this reason I feel especially drawn to certain people. I see potential energy yet to be unearthed. There is a set of conversations to be had, a set of experiences to be shared, a set of memories to be made. Friendship is a process of exchanging energy. Change is a process of exchanging energy. We enter a friendship one way and leave a friendship another way.

There are so many things you thought you would eventually get to that you never did. So much alcohol accumulated from high school that you thought you would drink one day. The excitement of alcohol was so great in high school. The experience was so unique, and the thrill of breaking the law embodied an adolescent excitement that is very hard to replicate later in your life. Adulthood is characterized by a state of less energy. There is just less energy to go around. Experiences are less exciting in experience.